desperation from within hesitation from without

The title is cool and ridiculous(which is good) but has nothing to do with what I am going to post.(but not really)

In my previous post I was talking about some weird stuff which I did in US, and people told me that I have changed after coming here.
Which is true in a way. For starters lets talk about my humility, now its vanished to the point where, being proud of ones fart and saying that its the best in the world seems like THE thing to do.(whatever). But without external stimuli things internal seldom change. So in a way , the people around me should be given partial credit for most things happening here.
The other change in me is, now I am an awesome cook!, well not really, but at least I can pretend to be one! Then the other thing is probably my dressing style(pathetic according to some here) but I have at least managed to shift from the normal formals!
But then, the thing which has changed the most is probably the way I speak to girls. Now I use F words on them like as if I am doing them a favour(and am proud of it). Then there is this incident where I called a girl 'lesbian' and then she made a big issue out of it. The result- I was banned in desi circles here. which is irrelevant. But the thing to note here is: now I don't shy away from things, and I have become so much more shameless and idiotic. For instance, once I asked a guy if he wasn't waiting for 'that other girl', when he was with some other girl. The result - well forget this part.
But its not just my social life which is screwed. My student life is messed up as well. But I will talk about that and more in my next post.
So until then, fuck those bloody citizens and kill those illegal immigrants.